I know firsthand how it feels to have your life spiral out of control. At times, it doesn’t matter how much you are trying because the current of your life just keeps pulling you down. It’s exhausting, everything feels overwhelming and you have NO idea what your next step is because you have been subjected to so much that makes you doubt, well everything. You grasp on to the things you thought you knew, only to realize that you were not making any sort of positive progress at all.
its wildly frustrating to realize that you are stuck. It’s harder to realize that your efforts to be unstuck may actually be the things that are keeping you cemented in the circumstances that you find so amazingly difficult.
Desperatiion of change sees me always longing for the universe to just throw me a bone. I get tired of always being subjected to a trial by fire. It’s conditioned me to expect the struggle and there is never an ease in that.
I thought if I kept to myself, my life would not leak all over the imagery of the way I actually wanted things. Not the case. I still struggle, I still cry and I also seem to be at the bus station while everyone is getting on a cruise ship.
I have been subjected to hurt. I am a walking wounded person, but I am not so broken that I am willing to give up trying. Diamond Dallas Page, has taught me a great deal most importantly, we all fall down, but it will always be our responsibility to get back up. It doesn’t mean that it is going to be easy, but it’s going to be worth it.
In my experience, when you have no idea what you are doing or what way is up, pick something, even if it is small and TRY. You are worth having things going your way, but that doesn’t mean that life is not going to make you strong, steadfast or stubborn first.
TRY - To Realign Yourself- with effort, hope, possibilities because you want them not because someone else expects them!
live your day, in your way,